one more week

gosh. one more week. thats how much time my cousin has before she’s officially off the shelf. OH MY GAWD! the thought is just plain scary ohmygosh.. getting married. oh my. if i were her, i’d be having sleepless nights for months thinking about it. the thought of marriage freaks me like mad. hahh.

at 17 when my other cousin got married and i was almost breathless cos i was a few inches away from him during the akad nikah, i thought i was just being childish. hahh. but at 22 i think my perception of marriage remains. scary shit. how the hell one garners enough courage to say, “ok mak kita dah nak kahwin.” haha but then again. i am me. you all know what a twisted mind i have. haha.

and recently my husband and wife friends celebrated their 1 year anniversary. wow! i was so amazed i went around saying “wow! one year! what an achievement! woooww!” and to my embarrassment no one shared my sentiments. haha so i was paiseh. well  i know many ppl have celebrated years of anniversary. my parents did. but. that doesnt stop me from being amazed at how these couples remain hitched for years. the thought of being with the same man for 1 year is enough to send chills running down my spine. gosh.

but at the same time, i dont want to turn grey on my own. i want someone i can sit down with in the afternoon, to drink coffee with and discuss world affairs with. hah someone to travel the world with, to fight over the last piece of tiger biscuit with. haha so random.

wallahualam bisawwab.

im off to KL this weekend.